Captain H
Captain H
My wife and I had a disagreement tonight. I know that the first thing that jumps to your head when I say disagreement is, 'screaming argument', but that couldn't be more from the truth. Honestly, we just disagreed on something. Neither one of us was right, neither was wrong, we simply approached the situation differently. So what on earth do you do when everyone is right, and no one is wrong… And why oh why can't I stop thinking about it?
We like to think that we live in a world that is black and white. It doesn't help that as we grow up we are surrounded by stories and examples that tell us, 'There is no gray area!' True, our heroes are usually outnumbered or in some other way at a disadvantage, but we always are able to tell who the 'good' people are and what the 'right' decision is. As if the look of Darth Vadar didn't give away his evilness, the iconic music that always accompanied his entrance to a room did. My life totally needs a soundtrack… But I digress.
Then we grow up, leave our super hero fantasies behind, and realize that some of life's smallest decisions are a lot harder to deal with than we ever thought saving the world could be from the cartoons and comic books. We meet this strange color called gray, and spend the rest of our lives trying to figure out if it's quantitatively more black or more white - and completely ignore the possibility that maybe this new color isn't some combination of good and evil. Maybe it just isn't either, and that's life.
So why does that bother me so much? Probably because I'm my biggest critic. Because I will constantly see the 'black' in my grey, even if it is just a neutral situation. I will always doubt, always wonder what I could have done to make a better decision - or if I even made the right one in the first place.
But to be even more honest, because I want to always be right. I want to get my way. I want to win. I want everyone to come around and pat me on the back for being such a genius and coming up with the best solutions. I want to be one of those comic book heroes who wears their cape with pride and always triumphs in the end. And maybe that's my kryptonite.
So here's to a new super hero that I should try to imitate: Captain Humility. Haven't you heard of him?
Of course not… and that's his super power.



Thursday, February 9, 2012




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